Good Bye 2012 ~ ♥

Recall my life of year 2012...Really meaningfull but I had wasted many time too...
A sad case, I didn't reach my target yet...Own a cafe shop... =(

But in this years, I had learn how to be independant, how to be strong, how to be forgive peoples...
Not the childish mind girl anymore...this must to thanks my friends...They change my mind! XDD

I think it before want to have dance show together with a lot of friends at the public places...
Finally I done it!I done it! And learn how to dance properly!
Thanks and appreciate for the crew members and teachers of  Parazee The Showroom & The Flash! ♥
They teach me a lot, really awesome!Damn love they all! ♥
But I'm still poor in dance...So dissapointed! ='( *Sigh~

Meanwhile, I had explore and touched in the categories of bakery just because someone need to bake cookies for her someone  =.= But the funny thing was we don't own a oven, and rush up down to my ex's house for borrow the place and oven...So awkward! =(
I don't mean to go there, but is okay just because my friend =)

We in crush in phto shooting too~No matter where we are, we sure will take out the camera and handphone take the photos and share with others...Cause sharing is the good things! Not we are narcissism! Haha~

I went to clubbing too...But I'm just go in for play and dance, not drinking beers!Just my friends drank it all~ What a good girl am I, right?haha~I knew it's freak went to there without drink beers -.-
But no idea!Cause my face will redness and pop out the pimples, so better don't I tried it again! XDD
And I remember we got block of the police after clubbing, then our naughty boy kacau the police, so brave he were! >.<

Haha~Hope my next year life also can be like this year! Meaningful and fun always! I know it's hardly, but I'll try it... Enjoy my life! =)

I'll keep going in the next year, won't be a bastard to waste my life and time again! Do what I want, be myself! Cheers! XDD

30/12/12 ~

说好不哭...鼻子却开始酸酸的...眼角乏着泪光...
最后落泪了...

是我把什么事情都看得太重了吗? 为何心一直揪着揪着，
开始慢慢地发痛了?

夜里的风冷嗖嗖地吹，吹过了脸颊、吹冷了眼泪...
心开始寒了...
慢慢地，脑海里浮现了那些该死的坏回忆...
为什么这些回忆都要死缠着我不放啊?
说好要忘记了，重新开始生活...但是我为什么一直都办不到啊?
可能思想太幼稚了吧?
也许是我太过于执着、太过于依赖别人吧?

从以前乐观、无忧无虑的小孩，我变成了多愁善感、害怕寂寞孤单的少年...
好几次试着乐观的面对我所面对的一切...
但始终都办不到，最后也告败了...
为什么我偏要拥有这些伤脑筋的情绪啊?
是我太过于懦弱、那么的不堪一击???
导致我脸上的笑容也离我远去了...

我真的不知道在未来的路上，我该怎么的走下去...
我的人生开始慢慢地步上了黑暗之路...开始找不到原有的目标了...

25.12.2012

25.12.2012~ ♥

Heritage Trip,
our christmas day~

We walking under the sun to visit our heritage area,
since we trouble in ride bycicle~
We taken many picture with crazy and enjoy!!!
Was too fun~ XDD

And then go for a pray and wish anything will going better on the next year...

After the trip,
we having our dinner together...
It's so delicious~
Yummy~

Later on,
we direct go for our dance practice...
since going to performance already...

Hope our next performance will become nice and smoothly~ XDD

The new temple~ ♥

 My works~ ♥ haha~

 Welcome to Chew Jetty~ ♥

 Have a rest on the antique chairs ~ ♥

 With Joyin~ ♥

 With Nic ~ ♥

 In the Guan Yin Temple ~ ♥

 Smile everyday ya~ ♥

Thanks for Sigrid ~ ♥

 We are ONE~ ♥

We are ONE!!! ♥

22/12/2012~

 

人，
不断的盲目追求...
甚至不知道自己所追求的是什么...
就这样我们开始慢慢地、渐渐地迷失了自己...
变成一个我们不认识的、陌生的自己...

佛陀曾说过: "人之初，性本善"
可是我们却埋没了原本的自己，
一个单纯善良的自己...
而变成了心机重重的另一个人...
一直想办法攀高眺望...
只因不想再输给任何人...
然后把自己搞得狼狈不堪...
值得吗???

有时候我会在想，
但你利用非法手段去争取你所要的,
而搞得朋友都没得做...
甚至每天见面都会以脏话打招呼...
这是你所要的吗???

想想吧~
回头看看...
自我们懂事到现在...
我们做过了什么、又为父母做过了什么???
我相信你一定会为自己所做过的事而懊恼!

曾现在，
我们还年轻、有的是时间，
开始做回原本的自己...
别再当另外一个的你了...
这样你才能轻松的过生活...
并且乐观的面对所有的事情...

加油，
我相信大家都一定办得到的... =)

X'mas Flash Mob

16.12.2012~ ♥
Today shows was so awesome!!! >.<
Something wrong happened and making everyone down...
Luckily,
didn't ruined the show... =)

Everyone dance hardly under the warm and big sun!
But our passion warmth heart didn't get ruined...
Maybe that's the spirit of dancers...
Right?
(P.S I'm not a dancer!Just know a bit dance XDD)

And a miracle happened too~
I met my Ipoh friend, my NS leader...
That's a fate?haha XDD
So miss her!!! =3=

Maybe too excited and laugh whole day...
That's making me tired and tired!!!
But it's worth it XDD

Hope nothing will happen on the next show...
I just wish everyone dance with a happy and enjoy mood!!!
Dislike to see peoples argue... =)

 

 

 

 

 

 

♥

Noona Dancer Style XDD ♥

 

 

Siao Po Style XDD ♥

 

Same pose!!! ♥

 

A Pink X'mas Tree ♥
Wish everyone happiness!!! ♥

 

 

Be a Dog Lover, Not a dog Catcher!!!

狗儿眼里只有主人，
一生只想陪在主人身边...
它们比人还忠心、
它们很了解主人要的是什么...

人类会背叛、伤害彼此...
当狗狗却不会那么做...
只要它们认定你是它的伙伴、它们的朋友...
他们就会一生守护在你身旁，
不离不弃...

有时候很不明白...
为什么那些脑残的人那么喜欢虐待动物...
说什么它们会咬人、会伤害人类...
真正最凶残的还不是我们人类!!!

有想过吗?
我们破坏了大自然、夺取了许多动物的家，
只为了我们的吃、住、玩...
可是它们没有真正的来攻击我们人类，
而是和我们和平共处...

但我们却慢慢的夺取了它们的一切...
夺取了它们的自由...
夺取了它们的住处...
夺取了它们的一切...
还结束了那些流浪狗狗猫猫的生命!!!
难道都不觉得过分吗???

为什么还要伤害那些动物，
破坏大自然?
为什么???

我希望大家都会反省，
别再伤害和虐待动物了...
希望捉狗对能快速的被瓦解!!! >.<

18.11.2012 ♥

That's a awesome show for me with the flash members yesterday!!!
I met many new friends there,
they so friendly, for me...

We used to dance two shows...
Tired, but still enjoy it...
We having dinner together and take photos with crazyly XDD

After that,
having my movie with joyin and jing zi's family...
The movie is nice and touching for me!!!
Nice movie!!! ^^

The fully scedule making me feel tired,
but so fun for me...

Hope can see they again!!! >.<

Miss you guys!!! <3

Free Hug!!! XDD ♥

Nic, Cole (Dance Teacher), Joyin, Jovin (Didi) ♥
 

Diavolo Crew with "Shin Chan" XDD
 

 A pretty mature kid I met ♥

 Joyin, Raven (Leader Group F) ♥

 Jovin (DiDi) ♥

 Just Showing our costume XDD ♥

 The part of Flash Members ♥

Our hapiness Family ♥ XDD
 

Nic Chew, Joyin Yan, Evyone Teh ♥
 

♥

Heart Broken...

My heart is deep bleeding now...
Why???
Why I need to face this all again and again?

Why everyone treat me like that?
Is my wrong?
Is my problem?

Who said it,use the truth heart at your friends,
you will find a truely friend?
Why I didn't meet that with a broken heart?

No one know me...
No one know what I really want...
Everyone just try and hurt me....
Even the person I believe in...

Why???
I hate living in this world...
Can I end up my life?
I didn't have courage to face this all already...

I hate myself...
Hate myself just know how to cry,
when meet something suffer...

God,
please end up my life!!!
Please bring me out of this world!!!

I don't want to get suffer anymore...

=(

Think aboout it,
it seems a long time I did not laugh from the heart...

When can I remove the hypocritical mask?

04.11.2012

We done the six shows with happy and tired!!!
Was fun and I enjoy it...

After the show,
we went to Penang bowl played bowling~ ♥
At the 1st tried,
my fucking thumb stuck in the hole of ball,
and I could flied out with the ball,
if I didn't use my leg and hand to pull myself back...

At the last,
I get the terrible mark!!! TT^TT
Maybe really I'm imposible to be a bowling genius... -.-

Then we met out techer for dinner...
My techer look so weird,
I trying hard to talk with her...
But look like,
she don't like to talk with me...
Maybe she still mind and mad what I done for her...
Nevermind, that was my wrong...
I can't said anything... =)

Even happy and was a enjoy day for me,
but something unhappy + messy happened between us...
Really ruined my some good mood!!!
Whatever,
hope don't happened again... =)

Diavolo Crew ~ ♥
(Just a name for temporaily)

(Without lion~ TT^TT)

痛!

我的错!!!
不想再和那位 gentle 再乱下去!!!

机会一次又一次的给了她，
可她从来都没反省!!!

没关系，
我死了后...
你就可以很安心的过你的生活了!!!

老天爷，
赶快把我的命收收去...

人间比地狱还要辛苦!!!
我觉得我并不适合生活在这没心没肺的人间里!!!

我现在只想离开这里!!!
舍弃这里我所拥有的一切!!!
不对，应该说并不完全属于我的一切!!!

我认输~
在感情方面，
我彻底的举白旗!!!

Suffer-ing~

I curious it, izit I'm in your status and blog recently?
Not you said it, we never getting back together?
Why still like that?

Yea!I admit...I still have some little bit miss you...
But our story already be the past...
I don't think the relationship between us still have any chance...
Just because we trying hard to forget each other, not u?

Can I know what in your mind?
Can you just tell me?
Don't let me suffer in this all anymore...
Please...

你到底要伤到我多彻底???

跟你做朋友真的很压力咧~
我一直都在顾及你的感受，
而你呢?

我暗地里的一直在众人面前给你面子，
而你却一次又一次的下我面子!!!
是怎样???

对，
我没有你参的那些朋友那么红、那么的美、那么的帅...
但并不代表我是一个不值得让你 respect 的人!!!
我也是有自尊心的!!!

你可以偶尔的顾虑我的感受吗?
偶尔的为我想一下吗?

你要伤害我到何时才肯罢休?

为什么我都非得这么的累去应付你?为什么?
只因我并不红?我并不漂亮?并不会拐弯抹角的捧你?

现在可好了，
在别人面前你是个大好人，
而我呢?
小气的大坏人!!!
甘愿了吗?

我可以从来都没认识过你这个人吗???

18.09.2012

18.08.2012~ ♥
Today is my happy day for me and my lovely doggie...
I attend the SPCA event with my family~
That's so many species dog at there!
All the dog I like~! XDD

My dog trying to be friend with the dog at there...
But it scare of the Bull Dog~
Cause the dog is too hyperactive and warmth~
Then my dog just escape and hide from the Bull Dog~
That's look so funny~ XDD

And my friends busy take photo with the dog at there~
Me too~ XDD

That's also have dog show...
The dog show look so fanstatic,
as many of the dog playing trick very smart!
They so clever...

The day is so tired but excited than more~ XD

Husky kiss me <3

She just act like a child play blek v me! XDD

It know share hand very well XDD

Cute doggie with Joyin and me XDD

29.7.2012~ ♥

29.07.2012~ ♥
Today we went to Tze Chin Jing Si Tang to be a kitchen helper...
We cut all the vegetables and fruits~
But I not very smart enough to cut all the vegetables very nice~
At least I got tries,right? XDD


While we waiting for the chef cook,
we have some rest in the kitchen~
And we used to know a girl name Chun Qin,
she such as a kind and helpful girl~
Nice to meet her... XDD

After the "customers" finish their lunch,
and was the time to us enjoy our lunch together...
At the table,
they all eat with polite and quiet,
difficult with my family... XDD

And I found many fun with them~
Such as a nice day for me...
I learned many thing and enjoy it~ ^^





The rabbit created by me and Sisters~ ♥

The rabbits created by me and sisters ~ ♥

The food we prepared together~ ♥

Our kitchen helper team today~ XDD

21.7.2012~ ♥
Went to Gurney Plaza New Wing for the performance of

Step Up Revolution Flash Mob yesterday~
We used to dance very fantastic and awesome~

After that,
we got the two voucher from our teacher supposed by 老油鬼鬼~
And we can't wait and got a hurry to there for our lunch~
Is so yummy~XDD

Nearly evening,
we went to Bon Odori for fun...
And I meet up my ex...
He were suited the japanese traditional~
Look nice~
But weird! XDD

After finish watch the firework,
and feeling nothing to do...
So we just go Paragon for nonsense talking~XDD

And here the 1st time I reached home at around 4.30am,
luckily my mum didn't scold me... XDD

Feel very tired but fun~
And I swear I wont go Bon Odori again~
Is totally boring!!!

The voucher we got~

Joyin And me~

16.07.2012...

人为什么要有感情啊?
为什么要有喜怒哀乐啊?
很痛苦啦~

我真的没有那个勇气再活下去了...
家人、朋友的关系，
都快把我搞得透不过气了...

为什么有些人就那么得好命，
有人疼...
而我非得去接受这些痛苦?

很累了~
一个人富有感情的我真的很累了...
我不知道自己还能支撑多久...
自己还能坚持下去不...

对，
的确我有很多快乐的回忆...
但是伤心的、痛苦的，
比开心的还要来得多...

如果有一天，
我真的支撑不住了，
倒下去了...
每个人都不会可怜我、也不会因为我而哭吧?
只会狠狠地往我身上踩下去，对吧?

看透了，
根本就没人会疼我...
我只能注定的空手来到这世上，
带着眼泪回去那里吧...

从此我会收起我的喜怒哀乐，
不再与人分享...

就让我做个无感情的机器人吧...

14.7.2012

14.7.2012 ~ ♥
昨天和我的朋友们去看画皮，
而且是半夜场哦~

看到完已经是两点多了...
他们肚子饿，
所以就跑去 mamak 档口吃东西...
两个大男人却在那里卿卿我我~
完全不顾虑我们女生的感受!!!
哈哈~

过后，
他们说要去看 Ah Gua...
然后就兜来兜去，
为的就是看 Ah Gua!!!
才来在车上大喊大叫...
严重笑爆!!! XDD

昨天我真的很开心...
累也累得值得~ ^^

谢谢你们的欢笑声~ ♥

2012.7.7

7.7.2012~ ♥

我和我的朋友们一起去 Paradise 的海边...
他们和我说怕不够水喝，
所以要我们先进去里面等~
所以我和 Sherline、Jian Zhen 和老夫子一起进去先...

我看到了海水，
就拉着 Sherline 和我一起去玩水...

当我面向海时，
突然后面有人在唱生日歌...
我转去后面看时，
Joyin 和 Jing Zi 就一边捧着蛋糕，
一边唱生日歌走向我~

那时，
我真的被吓到了...
原来他们是在骗我说要去买水，
其实是想给我一个惊喜...

许了愿、切了蛋糕...
我们就站着吃蛋糕和 Pizza (因为没有地方坐 XDD )
而且还小当了人家的电灯泡!!!
haha~

过后，当然就是狂拍照~
留下一些回忆~ XDD

我真的很开心也和惊喜~
我只想说，
朋友们(那些年)...
有你们真棒!!!

2012年7月6日

我真的很累了...
想找个肩膀让自己靠...
但始终找不到一个适合我的...

我很讨厌寂寞，
每次都会在那边自己乱想些有的没的...
结果把自己搞到很 emo...

其实我也不懂为什么我非得把自己搞到那么狼狈?

弄到自己好像没有了灵魂的丧尸...
很累人...

有时会想，
活在这世上怎么都好痛苦啊?
人家有的，
我都没有...

我活在这世上，
还有意义吗?

Our friendship???

Raining again~ <3
Just same as my mood...

Well,
I got some dissapointed truthly...
Just because I feel that my frineds lost one by one...

Is that anything I doing wrong?
Or just you all busy of your life?

I feel confused about it...

Is ok...
Is that should be my destiny...
I speechless and just accept it...

2012年7月2日

假装自己有多好，
即使让自己穿上了多好的保护色...

还是一样掩饰不了那悲伤、很痛苦...

虽然事情已过了那么的久，
是我执著、不肯放手...

但现在，
我真的想通了...
居士说的对...

我应该把机会让给别人，
而不是一直沉浸在过往的生活...

是时候释怀了...
我不可以再这样荒废我的生活下去了...
我要我的思想变得更成熟!!!


我要改变我自己!!!
我要尝试去做到...

2012 年6月30日

为什么我总在脆弱时，想起了你?
眼泪也悄悄地掉了...

久违的泪水，
每一滴都是心碎...

我知道我们走的路，
已来到了结束...

但我却任然坚持着不放弃、不认输...
这感觉就像是千千万万的刀子插在我心上...

放弃真的好难...
当初不应该爱上你，
现在就没必要去承受那些痛苦...

心真的碎了... </3

有人邀请我去跳舞比赛，
我还在犹豫要不要参加...
给是以前的我，
我一定跑去参加的~


不是我没勇气，
而是我太久没练舞了...
怕会跳到很好笑~


我比较擅长跳男生舞，
但我很想尝试跳一下女生舞。
但看到条女生舞的人都穿高跟鞋，就怕怕~

 ︶︿︶
哪个舞比较适合我跳啊?  

Our love already past almost one year ago,
but why I still have the feeling wanna to be with you...
why?
I think my mind starting to lose control...

Early in the morning,
careless open your profile and saw you were in the relationship...
Don't know why I got a bit jaelous...

I already swear with the god and my budy,
told them wanna to give up you..
But I don't know why I will break these promises again and again...

Is that I still loving you?
Or just jealous you, good to her?
I also don't know...

But the one I know,
my heart can't love you anymore,
because you have BROKEN it...